Jesse Loves Brady

July 25, 2005

Have you heard?

I bet you haven't! Before I moved out of Sprout Farm, I remember discussing with Cookie the fact that the Cape lacks a solid news source. Yes we have local, hometown newspapers, and one biased paper to cover our Cod, but quite often I hear of incidents, that should be but are not covered by this paper. I have observed their incredibly selective choice of stories, including eulogizing some dead teens, while disregarding the deaths of others. This point in itself makes me sick to know that someone probably knew someone, or didn't know someone, which justifies the coverage of one death over another! It makes me so angry. I can disregard blatent political statements, but its the little things that irk me. On a given day, there could be 10 car accidents on Cape Cod, but only the ones on the Upper Cape are reported on, leaving us from the Lower Cape to wonder, "Are we really that uninteresting?

What I would like is a newsstation that covers the Cape. God knows the Cape produces enough newsworthy drama in the summer to fund a station. It would be nice to be able to turn on the tv and be told if there is a car accident or impending weather. I love turning on the news in the morning and hearing that there is a rollover on 128 South, and Boston has clear skies! Poppycock! Traffic is gridlock down here and nobody cares to share with the likes of us stuck in it. We also happen to be stuck in a fogbank.

So to complete my rant, I don't think it is fair that our news is either disregarded or lumped into Boston news. We are an entirely different area, which most of the time people forget about, unless they are coming down planning to drive like assholes and tip poorly. The locals deserve to know the basics. Bitter? You think?

Posted by Jesse at 01:38 PM | Comments (2)

July 23, 2005

The Cod~A Matchmaker From Heaven!

A few summers ago I took a very inhumane Precalculus class...three nights a week, three hours a night. It is only natural that when one spends so much time with the same people under torturous circumstances, that one makes friends. It just so happened that the Cod and I shared the same class. We sat in the same row but at opposite ends. We shared a few words, but nothing extensive. I remember talking to the Cod about the tuna that comes out of the little sack vs. the can. Clearly the Cod was torn over such a contraversial issue. Thankfully the class ended and we all went on our merry ways to enjoy the rest of the summer. In the fall the Cod and I ended up in the same Business Calc. class. We began a routine of meeting up in the hall the hour before hand and chatting about the troubles of life and math. Even when the Cod decided Calc wasn't for him, he continued to meet me in the hall for chats! After the semester was over, the Cod and I kept in touch through AIM. He then hooked me up with a weblog to help me vent my issues. Here you see it today. The Cod even came down to inspect Truro's view of the Bay, afterall this is critical to Cods! Best of all, the Cod put me up for an entire Winter. When the Cod told me he was meeting up with a local young man from Sandwich, I was excited. He was another blogger, and the prospect of meeting someone blind was exciting. I chatted with him, just out of interest for who the Cod was hangin with. Time went on and he and the Cod became friends. Then he and I became friends. Then we became more than friends. And now we are getting married. If it weren't for the Cod chatting with me in the hall, hooking me up with a weblog that I knew nothing about, and being an all around great friend, I would not be the happy and healthy person I am today. The Cod, more than he knows, helped me break out of my shell and get on with my life. It is with all of this that I ask, will you be my Cod of Honor?

Posted by Jesse at 08:29 AM | Comments (1)

July 22, 2005

Tickled Pink!

I just took this test on Tickle and thought you'd like it, too. Take it and see how you score.

The Classic IQ Test
http://web.tickle.com/invite?test=3001&type=t

I got a 126, which means I am smart...or whatever. I found this fun and stressful. I believe it took me a few tries to pass a college math class with questions like this. Good Luck!

Posted by Jesse at 10:30 AM | Comments (1)

July 11, 2005

Breaking the Cycle

I have been quiet lately. I have been hurting too. I haven't used my blog as an outlet because I have wanted my privacy. It appears that communication with my family has taken a turn for the worse, and I have decided that I am done trying to make ammends. I have spent many hours crying and making myself sick about this. This huge transition in my life has been wonderful, but also a source of much pain when it comes to breaking away from my family. We haven't had a loving relationship. We don't get together. We don't talk on the phone. If I don't initiate, nothing happens. I have been fighting for years to get people to do things they have no desire to do. Now, I have this great new family that treats me like I have never been treated before. They want me around, and have made me feel at home from day one. We are constantly doing family things, and that feels so good to me. On the flipside, I have wondered why my own family doesn't want this. Even worse, I know my sisters struggle with this every day, and that my 12 yr old sister is left wondering why. After all of these years I have let go. It all comes down to the fact that my life isn't about me anymore. I am not the only one effected by my decisions. I hope that relatively soon, I will have a husband and children in my life. I want better for us than the constant hurt and drama. I want my children to be raised in a home where they feel safe and loved on a daily basis. I want a stable life for my husband and I, one I know we will have as part of his family. Rebecca has come by my house on a few occasions, and her actions made me feel so good. Someone expressed an interest in my life. So, why should I hang around for people who have openly told me that things are not going to change and to move on. I have the opportunity for a great life, being part of a family and being close to true friends. Its time to focus on these people, and put the past behind me.

Posted by Jesse at 03:32 PM | Comments (1)