Jesse Loves Brady

November 01, 2004

Bad Blogger

I know, I know, I am a bad blogger. I go through phases where I blog every day and then I disappear for a week or so. I haven't been blogging because I have been dealing with a lot of stuff that really isn't blog material. It has been a tough time, but I am thinking that things will be looking up real soon. The good news is, that everything that has been changing in my life has been positive. Feeling the emotion of love was not something I had planned on, but suddenly makes getting through the day a lot easier. The comfort that I feel with Drew has given me the strength to take steps and work on things that I have not been able to approach in the past. Granted, I am on the "one step forward, two steps back" path. I feel better than I have in a year. I just have one pesky symptom left, which seems to be completely messing with my head. I had no idea what insomnia can do to a person's mind until about a month and a half ago. The physical stress is one thing, but when I get this tired I find it hard to keep the irrational thoughts out of my head. I am averaging 3-4 hours of sleep a night. For me, this is terrible. I use to sleep 8+, so needless to say it is taking its toll on me. So if I disappear from this blog for a few days, I do apologize, and please cut me some slack. Say a prayer for me that I am sleeping. All will be looking up soon.

Posted by Jesse at November 1, 2004 09:42 AM