Jesse Loves Brady

September 09, 2004

Lack of Blogs

Rebecca asked me why I had not blogged in so long last night. The truth is...when I am having a hard time with things...I dont want to write because that means I have to deal with my feelings.

You know that feeling one gets when they really start caring about a person. When you see them...your heart beats quickly...and you get butterflies. Actually...it can be kind of uncomfortable...but the feeling is so rare that you have to enjoy it. Well I finally had that feeling this summer. I resisted it for as long as I could, because I knew nothing of true substance could come from my feelings. I guess we all cannot help the way we feel. We can suppress them, but they are always there. So now I am stuck....with feelings I can do nothing with. As usual...I am hoping to take them an invest them in something important...like my education. Basically, I think I am just having a hard time because I am going through alot of adjustments...many that are very difficult for me...almost like torture...that I cant quite explain. Every day that I get through makes me feel like I am one step in the right direction.

On the school front...I dropped ENV 101-48 otherwise known as Introduction to Environmental Technologies. I had no interest...and it seemed like a waste of my money. I am already taking one natural science and one behavioral science....enough is enough. Bio seems like it will be tough...but fine...I will get over it. Lab includes many dissections...but I met a nice guy...who will probably help me with that. Parking is stressful as usual, but because I dont drive a truck with tires as big as me...I am not asked to off road for a parking spot. I do, however, like the red lines the Maintenance Dept. has spray painted on the grass for organization purposes. Very feng shui...very CCCC.

On the weather front...I agree with Dougie Fresh that this weather sucks. I too got no sleep for the first day of school...due to the unbelievable humidity. This is the worst weather for sleeping. Also, I think I saw this Dougie guy in the science building yesterday. It was strange to me...because I read his blog...but really have no idea who he is. Almost like it is a violation of his privacy. Oh well...I dont think I really look like the pic in my blog...so I doubt anyone will recognize me.

On the work front...THANK GOD FOR LABOR DAY! The crowd is all old people now. Traffic is surprisingly simple, and I can take a left out of my road. This in itself has made my life much less stressful. Thank you New York, for taking all of those bastards back.

It is a grey day, I have a pile of homework to do, and the AC is on. Call me...I will need someone to chat with!

Posted by Jesse at September 9, 2004 08:39 AM