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August 25, 2004
Ending
All good things must come to an end...but why so soon...and why so often? Story of my life. Story of everyone's life I suppose. My heart is broken..but not to the extent it was a few months ago. Just general disappointment. I am sure this emotion will be reappearing consistently throughout my life...so I better just get over it. I try to consider myself lucky that I get to have happy experiences...no matter how short lived they are. Who knows what the future will bring. Positive thinking. I will be drowning myself in academics shortly, and no doubt they will be taking up more than 24 hours of my time as usual. Some things will never ever change.
On the Ben front...things aren't going so well...I mean for him..not for me. I spent some time getting him off of my credit report, because the agencies thought we were married. Hell no! Like I dont have enough problems concerning that relationship! Well...he thinks he is done with school...but Suffolk is saying he is missing a class. Wonderful! He has no job..and neither does his brother. This being said...he is not paying his bills. This has been apparent as the creditors heckle my grandmother because we are his most recent address. Now they are thinking about moving to Colorado or Vermont. One of the things I have learned in the past year is that moving does not solve problems. They follow you and snowball into even bigger problems. I am thankful that I am no longer in this situation. He did the right thing by letting me go. I am not thanking him, nor am I forgiving him...but at this point I feel much better off. I have no debt, besides what I incurred this month. I dont have a ton of money....but I dont have people hunting me down..and that is a damn good feeling. There is something to be said for being accountable for oneself. I have always been accountable for my actions, and my place in this world, because I have had to be. There isnt anyone to bail me out....and sometimes I think I am better off. This blog has turned into an uncontrollable rant..I think I will stop now.
Posted by Jesse at August 25, 2004 08:33 AM
Comments
If he wants to get away from creditors, he needs to go overseas. It's like dropping off the face of the earth.
Posted by: Rebe at August 25, 2004 07:19 PM