Jesse Loves Brady

June 03, 2004

Late Night Chat

I didnt get to sleep until late last night, which explains why I am essentially useless today. I stayed up talking to my old friend, something that seems to be getting a little easer. One day at a time I keep telling myself. I dont cry about it anymore, even if I am tempted, I take a deep breathe and let it go. I am damn determined to be ok. I have made great strides to get better, and my improvements can even be noticed thru IM. Its hard to let go of a best friend, but I am glad that we are both making improvements in our lives. When we were done talking, I laid in bed and tried not to think. Brady cuddled me for a longtime, and eventually I fell asleep. Life does move on.

My job is by far the easiest I have ever had, and will ever have. I have cable tv, video games, internet access(hence this early morning blog), free soda and juice, free coffee, air conditioning, and $12 an hour. I will enjoy this while it lasts because no doubt the real world will appear before my eyes shortly.

I went off Cape yesterday. Went to Plymouth, Pembroke, just shopping and wandering. Got a few shirts on clearance at Target, a new comb for Brady, and a magazine for my mental pleasure. If if continues to rain everyday, my purple mood enhancing light bulb will not do the trick.

A very cute guy keeps coming into the office. I think he has been in 4 times this morning. He is from San Fransisco, but just arrived from Spain yesterday. I cannot automatically evaluate his sexual orientation, as I usually can, but the odds are not in my favor. There is a gay jewish wedding at the motel today. He cant be on this earth for me. The coffee is being sucked out of this place like there is a shortage. I guess I am not the only one feeling lethargic. I will probably take a good nap this afternoon. Then do some sociology reading. I have to get ahead for my classes, its gonna be a busy summer. Talk to you later.

Posted by Jesse at June 3, 2004 09:37 AM