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March 14, 2004
Getting Better
I am waiting to start feeling alot better. I am eating...and sleeping more. But I just wish I could feel like me again. I would give anything to be able to do things like a normal kid. I miss my friend. I will never have him back. I know that. It is just facing this that is the problem. It hurts to see him online. I am being strong...not talking..not trying to communicate. I dont even call Jay...because I know he is there. The other day when I ate in NB..i wondered if Ben had eaten there with his old boss. My first instinct was to call and ask..but I cant do that anymore. It feels weird. The person that you think is your soulmate....is gone. Sigh...someone please bring me some more strength to fight...I am tired. I miss you.
Posted by Jesse at March 14, 2004 12:58 PM
Comments
Maybe it's time to put his online name in the block list so you won't see him there... Just a thought.
Posted by: Rebe at March 14, 2004 08:35 PM